This post is going to be long, but I'm going to put my work schedule (As I have like 3 weeks of schedules) and some song lyrics behind cuts.
This weekend definitely wasn't one of the best. It started out nice as I went home to visit family on Sunday and get to be with my younger brother who got back from Iraq. I also got to meet his fiancee. Got to spend time with other family members like my Aunt & Uncle from my mom's side, My grandmother, another Uncle, and cousins. Had a blast. I drove down with my brother as we usually carpool to my parent's, but on the way back I had an extra passenger, one of my cousins as she lives real close to me and she wanted to stay and visit longer as she drove down with my aunt & uncle... I took her back and stayed for a little dinner, and Sunday night was when things happened and the breakup with me and hydra_velsen
. I'm glad Rick was home... He and I stayed up a nice bit and talked for quite a while... I really needed it, needed someone there for me. My brother had to go to bed as he works fairly early in the morning, and with when it first happened around 11pm it wasn't like I could really go anywhere or be with friends. I was also up till like 5am that night... :/ *groans* I haven't been sleeping well since around Christmas time.
Monday... I was feeling a bit better from last night. I'm still not totally 100%, but hey this time around I wasn't as devastated. I was kinda prepared for this, and had been for a little while. It still doesn't change the fact how much things hurt. I spent some of the morning talking with a few people online. Some on SL... I really should pay more attention to the MUCKS again I used to be on them and stuff more often. Amberlee offered to come over and the company was definitely appreciated some. Wish I could've had a few people over, but eh... No biggie. I showed her how much I had been practicing, as with last night before Rick got home I was out in the cold and needed to do something... *shrugs* She was fairly impressed with how quickly in general I've been learning these poi spinning tricks. Later on though, my brother also came over, and we all had some pizza and watched Ice Age
: The Meltdown
, and then when Rick got home I just wasn't in the mood to kick everyone out and go work out so we all watched another movie, Aeon Flux
. Talked a nice while and then eventually had to tell people to GTFO (get the f@*k out). I eventually got some sleep. Still haven't been sleeping the best. That will pass and things are going to get better. I'm not going to let this get me down. Still unsure of a few things though... Questioning if I want to be in a relationship again and other things... *shrugs* Meh, just gona live life as it comes and stuff.
Today's been "so-so" at work... though here is my tenative schedule for the upcoming weeks... I so can't wait for FC though...( Read more... )
Here are some other lyrics that I have posted to this journal before, about a year ago, but are still fitting some...( Read more... )